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Hélène Egger - ‘The war had started, but I didn’t really care’
’10 May 1940, I remember it really well. You saw them coming over, the airplanes. The war had started, but I wasn’t really bothered because my mother was ill, really ill and I was more concerned about that.
She had a brain tumor. On 8 May she had just had her operation. It was a very difficult operation and it didn’t go well. It took nearly 9 hours. Her whole head was opened up. The tumor had to be removed. The professor who operated on her emigrated that same evening to America. Why? Because he was Jewish.
After the operation I went with my two older brothers Daniël and Julius to live with grandfather and grandmother in Amsterdam. They looked after us. The house on the Koninginneweg was far too small to raise three children. But there was no other choice. My parents had separated before my mother became ill.
I had been staying for a few days with the de Jong family when my brother Julius came to collect me. “Mummy has died” he said and I could see he was trying hard not to cry. We walked home together. I know exactly what I was wearing: a sailor suit with a large white collar.
When we arrived at our grandparents, there were small chairs everywhere. Jews do that when someone has died. They sit on the small chairs. For seven days. It’s known as sitting shiva.
I didn’t see my mother again. They buried her in the Jewish Cemetery in Muiderberg, a village near Amsterdam. I wasn’t at the burial. They kept me away from it all. I’m not quite sure why. I think they thought it was better for me. Later, after the war, I often went to her grave. I stood there for hours. Hours on my own. I was eleven when my mother died on 23 September 1941. Eleven years old and inconsolable.
Source: Extract from Ik ben er nog. Het verhaal van mijn moeder Hélène Egger. In cooperation with the author Debby Petter and Uitgeverij Thomas Rap.
Hélène Egger
Hélène Egger is a 10 year old Jewish girl when the war breaks out in 1940. When her mother has to undergo a serious operation she goes to live with her grandparents. After being arrested, Hélène manages, with the help of her grandfather who has connections in the Jewish Council, to escape from the Hollandsche Schouwburg (Dutch Theatre). She goes into hiding and eventually ends up at a farmer's family in Brabant.
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